14 years ago, I started a little blog called Black Gay Blogger. It wasn’t my first blog, but it was the one I maintained the longest. It was also the one which shaped my life the most — for better and for worse.

When I turned 30 in 2011, I ended up shutting down the blog, and started…well…this. Karsh Writes was supposed to be the continuation of my musings as I entered this new chapter of life.

Hell, the blog was even subtitled “the next chapter”. Subtle, right?

I started off pretty strong, but as the years went on, I found myself updating this space less and less for a number of reasons. I’m more active on Twitter, I’ve got businesses to run, and I’ve got a life to live. (Well, not much of a life, but things have happened, my dears.)

Fast-forward to 2016. I turned 36 back in March, and with that I went on a bit of a manic spring cleaning spree. I donated half the clothes in my closet, tossed old furniture and other bric-a-brac I’ve been holding onto for one reason or another, and hired junk removers to get all the unwanted stuff out of my space.

As I stood around my now half-empty apartment, it felt like a weight had been lifted off of me. Suddenly, everything just seemed brighter. Lighter. I was even sleeping better. (Must be feng shui or something.) I had to keep going.

Physical cleaning lead to digital cleaning, which meant getting my business files in order, organizing old tax information, cleaning up business and personal contacts, and organizing my massive library of stock photos and other digital assets.

Now, we’re here.

After giving it some thought, I’ve decided to give up this blog and let it go gently into that good night. As much as I would love to keep this space, I’m just not using it effectively. Moreover, I can’t write the way I want to write online anymore, and it really fucks with me that I can’t express myself that way without it having real word repercussions because people — some of whom are “friends” whom I’ve known since I became Karsh — like to connect this persona to my IRL persona and do things which cause harm (and have caused harm over the years).

And yet…I still want to write. What’s a blogger to do? *sigh*

Here’s what I’ve decided.

  1. I’m taking down this site on July 1, 2017. Maybe sooner, if I have time.
  2. I’m going to start a newsletter. (A TinyLetter, to be specific.) I am committing myself to writing at least one dispatch a week to my subscribers. You can subscribe to it here. or sign up using the form below

Like Karsh Writes, this newsletter is going to be an experiment. I promise to keep it going for as long as I feel like it’s a safe space to write. Even if only one of you signs up, that’s fine with me. (But more than one of you should sign up. Don’t have me looking crazy out here.)

Take care, and I’ll see you on the other side.

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(Thanks to Cecily’s post, which inspired me to take this step.)